Even though I like you, you don't need to love me with your fake love

Hi, Sunny (my first love)? Do you still remember this story? Or am I the only one who remembers it? I hope you have a good memory of this story, our story.

I never imagined before, the beginning of the meeting was the beginning I liked you. I really remember that time when I entered high school and there was a MOS (Student Orientation Period), I accidentally met you. When the MOS was held, you were entrusted with being the leader of a group containing me and my friends. Starting from the usual introduction, which turned out that we were one alumni at junior high school.

You are my upperclassman but I have never met you before, and vice versa. And you have a game that is writing love letters. How hard it was for me to make up that story. How could I not, I don't even have a boyfriend. Finally, somehow I peeked your name from your white school shirt. One name that I remember and I write in love letters. Initially only as a requirement to take part in the MOS, until finally you thanked me for writing the love letter to you. Maybe I was tired at that time, so I took your thanks as a sign that you liked me. Though absolutely not.

I don't know why since then my heart was pounding when I saw you. I often steal glances when I pass your class. Trying to ask my friend your cellphone number to say your birthday. Even now, I still remember your date of birth. The things I did bear sweet fruit. You often reply to chats from me. We chat more often.

But, all the things we do are nothing more than friendship. I heard you went out with my friend. It hurts this heart. What am I to you? Then, what are the things that we do together? Don't have the slightest feelings from you for me. Since that day, I have been quiet. And stupidly I keep in touch with you. As if I'm tough with all of this. Even though in my heart I cried. I hope you and him separate.

Then, it didn't feel like I was already in 3rd grade high school. I haven't seen you again since you graduated from school. And I heard that you have separated from my friend. I don't know the reason, what is clear is that there is a glimmer of hope I can be with you. Who knows when? I don't know myself. We also became more intense in communicating until I finally graduated and I entered college. And from here, the bitter story begins.

You called me while I was studying on campus. You promised to take me home and you kept it. Along the way, it feels great to be close to you like this. This heart doesn't stop beating. In the evening after you took me home, you confessed to me. It feels like a dream but it's true. How glad I was that you finally confessed to me? Of course, I said yes. How could I not have been waiting for him for 4 years to confess his feelings to me.

I was wrong. Like being struck by lightning in a hole, my cheerful world seemed to collapse at once. The next night, you broke up with me over the phone. At that time, I didn't really understand what love was like, just said, “If it's the best, it's okay. I'm sincere. " And again I'm stupid, why don't I just ask at that time the reason for breaking up with me.

I can only cry to lose you. It took me a long time to have you and very soon I also have you. Time passed, 3 years after you decided myself I tried to find your cellphone number again which I had previously deleted because I was annoyed. I dare myself to ask the reason why you broke up with me?

My heart hurts a lot when you say the reason you broke up with me is because you only feel sorry for me. What do you feel sorry for me? Is it because my face is not pretty? Are you ashamed of having a boyfriend like me? Then, is it true for that reason or is there something else that you deliberately made to separate from me?

If you pity me from the past, why are you playing with this heart? Why are you confessing love to me? What did I do wrong to you? From then on, all I felt was pain. It hurts when we are the only ones who love but are not loved. What I did to him and he repaid it only because he felt sorry for me.

Four years I have waited for you and tried to get your heart. When that day comes, only one day I have you, you choose to go away from me instead. Sigh, let that story I will always remember as the love of my monkey in high school. For me from the past until now you are still my sunny. My first love. I can't just forget you with the many memories we spent together.

Rightly saidpeople, that first love is very hard to forget. Even though now, I already have a relationship with you and I don't know if you also have a relationship with you. But, this heart still expects you. Hope you can come back to me and love me sincerely not out of pity for me.

Sorry if it's up to this second, I'm still expecting you and it's not my heart's intention to play hearts. However, this heart still had the same taste as before. Even if you can't, I can only hope that you will be happy with your partner later who knows who the lucky woman is.